This is highly unusual.. But so necessary. I feel…

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Posted by: Sparx_of_Jade_4207 Original: 2/26/2009 9:01 PM Views: 5 Comments: 0 eProps: 0 Read Comments Post a Comment Back to Your Xanga Site

Thursday, February 26, 2009

This is highly unusual..
       But so necessary.

I feel like I'm on this wild emotional high
                              I feel everything so vividly.. i feel so alive and yet so indifferent at the same time.

It's starting to feel different.. not quite the same.
          And I don't want that to be the case-- I'm scared of that being the case.
Why do things have to pass us by?

                How do you always make me feel so guilty..
And I don't even know what for..

There's a giant pink elephant in the room.
            So much needs to be said..
Yet I can't even make a sound... Everytime I try.. I choke on my own thoughts.. and I simply nod at you.

We're choking each other equally.
                    You say I don't understand your struggles..
But have you really even thought about mine?
You are not to be the sheep... but I feel the tables tilt one way..

                    I just want to be free..
I want to feel all the colors I see.. I want to taste all the life flowing through the wind
              I want to be there.. I want to go for it.. I want to swallow it whole and just accept it for what it is.

What are we all really holding out for?
                     What am I trying to do.. who am I trying to prove all of this to?!

Something needs to be said. I need to say it. But I can't. I won't.
                I just want to run about.. and dance.. and never have a care.. I want to be happy... to be just me..

Will you still love me then?
    I have so much to offer.. can you see that? I have so much I want to share.. to give..
                     Yet I feel like there's no where to send it..

We're searching for the no-named. Heroes of another time. How far would you really go?
              When would you really realize what you're looking for?
Is it this thing before me.. or is it the beauty ahead..

I'm not ready for the change.. but at the same time I'm completely welcoming it .. I'm yelling for it to come--
   I need it to come..

             This is a stage of transformation. Chapters are closing. Lessons have been learned.
                                           I yearn for the new... for the unknown.. for the things yet to be discovered.. for feeling the harmony... to be alive and free.

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